vendredi, avril 22

le ciel tombe sur nous


I'm an environmentalist and a Catholic too, so for me this was a weird kind of day. According to my beliefs, I should've celebrated Earth Day and reflect over Jesus' death on Good Friday. I wanted to do a picnic for the planet, but the rain didn't allow me to do it, so instead, I spent my day watching Jesus of Nazareth on TV with my parents as we usually do on this day of the year (although my father isn't Christian).
Apart from that I haven't done much; just thinking about irrelevant things, and also about deeper stuff, like how am I as a person. Am I really a good person? Am I a good sister, a good daughter, a good friend? I am not sure. Sometimes I screw up, but I always try to be as good as I can with others. I commit sins. I don't confess very often, I don't go to church very frequently, but I try to do the right thing, to follow the right path. I try to be a good Christian on the act. I try to be the best at everything I can, but I tend to forget about myself, and that makes me less successful on being good with the rest. I don't ask for help, I don't talk about myself with my beloved ones. I am selfish and I lie, but I am trying to change that. I am glad that I have new friends who I can talk with, and still having my old friends who are always there to cheer me up even though they don't know I am going through a hard phase. I am happy and grateful that I have a family, that there's a place I can call home, that on a cold day like this I have clothes to cover me up, that if one day I lose my house there will be open doors for me somewhere else. Thanks to God I have the family & friends I have. Now I have to turn this gratefulness with action. Not everyone is as lucky as I am, so I have to take care about my own body, my environment, my family, my friends, and look beyond and help the less fortunate ones who weren't as lucky as me. Thanks.
...I'm not sure if I should have published this, but I am not ashamed about my beliefs. I'm sorry if I bored you or offended you in any way with this entry, that wasn't my intention. These are only personal reflections. I am also sorry if you were here to read another fun story, or to see some more photos or music, and instead you found this, but I needed to write this down somewhere.

Thank you for reading and understanding. Thanks for your support.
Cee Cee
This is a subliminal message! woo-hoo!

Currently reading: Veronika decide morir by Paulo Coelho
Currently listening to:
The Call by Regina Spektor
Currently watching: Jesus of Nazareth

2 commentaires:

ignacia maría a dit…

he notado por posts tuyos en diversos lugares que algo te tiene la mente ocupada, pero te cierras mucho... pero no estoy para presionarte, sólo quiero q sepas q estoy para escucharte/tratar de ayudarte, y que además me gustaría hacerlo apenas estés lista para hablarlo<3 te quiero cami, cuidaos, y estamos viendo si nos podemos juntar esta semana con las niñas, besos

Kate a dit…

This is great. Sometimes self-reflection is really needed and I know that, for me, writing it in a blog is the easiest way to do it.

It is people who think like you do, who consider their strengths and weaknesses, appreciate what they have and strive to be better, that are the best people.

Kate x